When everything is going wrong, check with your body’s answering service.
Friday I had a loooong shift.
Saturday I was still blah from Friday. When I got home from work I couldn’t sleep and stayed up way too late.
Sunday was a rough shift. 3 call outs.
Monday I forgot to turn the school alarm on. Got kid in with a minute to spare for the tardy bell. Didn’t really feel good for the rest of the day. Couldn’t sleep again.
Today (Tuesday) I dropped kid off at school then went back home to nap. Somewhere my brain changed “you have to be at work at 11:15” to “you have to be at work at 11:45.” I called work the second my phone calendar dinged saying I was supposed to be clocking in not long after I left the house. Luckily it’s not a big deal; as long as I don’t make it a habit all will be forgiven. But y’all know tardiness is NOT my habit. The fact this happened at all bothers me. Later I realized this was my 13th shift. I’m not generally superstitious, but damn it kinda made sense after that.
On my lunch break I sat down and examined the past few days. Long story short: anxiety is getting the better of me. I’m having more trouble adjusting to New Fight Club than I thought. My set schedule is gone, and it’s disorienting. My appetite and sleep aren’t right. I’m constantly second guessing what’s coming up. So it’s time to examine self care.
- Consistent bedtime during the week, with medication if needed. Just have to do the best I can on the weekends.
- Take my anxiety and allergy medicines every day. I keep missing doses.
- Add a calendar widget to my home screen that shows a daily calendar. My monthly calendar on the next screen over obviously isn’t cutting it.
- Lay clothes for myself and kid out the night before. Headaches saved.
- Snooze alarms are Satan.
I can do this.